a Christmas Tree.




:/

They just feel like another week.

some winter “break” i’ve been having. i’ve been working 6-8 hour shifts this entire week and i dont even have time for my own family

didnt go christmas shopping either.

and to top it all off, being alone is really taking its toll on me. i just wish i could have a fairytale ):

or at least a love story thats cute y’know? i just want someone who’ll surprise me.

well happy holidays everyone

sorry for bringing you all down.

Although i didnt know her, i knew Ortega, who loved her oh so dearly. She’d come to me and just spill her feelings and from that, i know that Ortega loved her grandma very much and seeing her suffer was affecting her as well. She couldn’t bear to see her grandma suffer from Cancer’s grip any longer, yet, she also couldn’t bear to see her grandma leave this earth. So many questions ran through her mind. She was so confused. Her grandma was so loving, what did she do to deserve to suffer so much? God answered her prayers and now her grandma is walking besides him in the beautiful kingdom above. Seeing Ortega crying after work was painful, but also a relief because now, her grandma is resting peacefully. No longer does grandma need to suffer. No longer does grandma need to writhe in pain because of cancer. And no longer does Ortega have to watch and share in her pain. It’s unfortunate that it is so close to the holidays, but at least Grandma is spending her Christmas with God this year.
i love you Ortega, and we all at In-N-Out 221 share in your sorrows. But your beloved grandma is in a better place now and she’ll always be in your heart.

12/21/2009

so out of place. 
seriously.

All wanna say is i’m sorry

even though i didnt do anything wrong.

i’m just so fed up with everything. 
and i just wish…

but i still get butterflies when you call me lover.

-Mean Girls