// It’s 5:05am right now and I’m wide awake.//

michellerey:

I have so many things going on in my head and I’m not quite sure how to handle it all. Lately, I’ve been acting so bipolar ..happy then sad back to happy and vice versa. I’m in the need to go on a long car ride by myself, not to San Diego, but somewhere new and different. Ultimately I feel like I need some “me time” to think and gather my thoughts, but it’s always when I’m by myself that I’m at my worst. Why couldn’t life just hand me a straight path I could easily follow? I feel like I’m on a windy road and I keep bumping into all these obstacles ..obstacles however, that I put myself into. My emotions and feelings have been everywhere lately and I honestly don’t know how I’m gonna get any sleep these next couple of days until I get matters straightened out.

this is exactly how i feel right now ): except i DO want to go to san diego aha. i just feel like i dont belong here anymore.